Moments in Time

Wow, it's been a long time since I last wrote. I apologize for that; I never meant to stop blogging, life just got hectic and, as I'm sure most of you know, when that happens it becomes hard to keep up with everything. So much has happened in the past few months, I feel like I would have to write a book to tell of everything. The biggest change in my life is that I am now living in Colorado. It's lovely here, an amazing blend of the city and mountains. I took a job here, and as a result this has been a good learning experience, as well as a thrill. Sohneya and I are still together and in love. He began college this fall, and I'm so incredibly happy for and proud of him. There are times when I get this feeling of "I wish things were the way they used to be." I miss our first summer together sometimes because of how happy we were. That's not to say that we're not happy now, but it's so much harder than it used to be. I came to the realization a while ago that we sacrificed one thing for another; we sacrificed that total happiness and contentedness for time to be physically together. It was worth it, don't take this as me saying I wish we had stayed apart, there are just moments when how hard it is hits me full force. There are moments when the only thing that could comfort me would be to be in his arms, and it's the one thing I can't have. But then we have our good days, which outnumber the bad by exponential amounts, and those moments when I say to myself, "What on earth were we thinking?" disappear like they never existed. It seems to be God's way of telling me that we made the right choice in staying together, which of course I never actually questioned; I know that him and I are meant to be together. It's simply God showing me how incredibly worth being together is. Besides, if we never had our hard times the good times might not seem so amazing. Although, I think maybe we've had enough hard times to last us a long time. He makes me so happy, and it's so amazing to know that as much as he's changed my life, so have I changed his. We make each others lives so much better and happier that the hard times seem so minuscule they may as well not exist at all. So here's my thought to you all; when times get hard look at all the good things around you and think to yourself how worth it these things all are. And then when times get easier and good again, stop and take a look around; you may just find that those moments are meant to be treasured because you now know what it is to be in hard times. I guess what I'm really trying to say is that moments come up when we are in need of perspective and giving us hard times to deal with is sometimes a good way to give us just that. When you go through those times, you begin to stop taking good moments for granted, no matter how small they are. You revel in each second of those moments, you live them to their fullest. This is how life is meant to be lived; to take the bad moments, get through them, learn whatever lesson you were meant to from them, and move on, while living the good moments to the fullest you possibly can. Next time you're going through a hard time think of that, and maybe you'll even be able to turn it into a good moment.