Survival of the Fittest

What is it in us that makes us love a person so much that we would be willing to do almost anything for them? What makes us so eager to sacrifice anything and everything we have to, to save that person from anything they might face? Love is a crazy thing in that regards. It turns off our instinct for survival, and switches it around so that we care more for the other's survival than our own. This should go against everything within us that is animal, and yet it happens every day. Not only do we care more for their survival than our own, but we also care more for their happiness. I love my Sohneya so much it's almost an ache, I know that sounds slightly cliche, but it's true; I literally ache for him. Losing him would kill me, and I would fight any obstacle to be with him. Unless he asked me not to. If he asked me to let him go, if one day he told me he no longer loved me, I would let him walk away. As much as I desire to be with him for the rest of my life, as much as I want to hold on to him no matter what, I would let him go because I love him, because even more than I want to be with him, I want him to be happy. Not only that, but if I held on to him after he asked me to let him go, I would have already lost him. This is a good lesson to remember: don't hold on to people who no longer love you, who don't want you in their lives, because if you do you'll be fighting for a cause that was lost the moment they asked you to let them go. Holding on to him after he tried to leave would be the most selfish thing I could do, it would mean that our love was not genuine to begin with, it would mean that I cared more for my happiness than I did his. It is because I desire nothing more than for him to be happy that I would let him go. Love is a crazy thing. Even when I'm angry at him, when I'm pissed off to no end and turning the air blue, I'm no less in love with him. Even though I'm infuriated, I still have that ache for him, that ache that tells me just how much I love him. To all of you out there who have already discovered their life partner, you know exactly what I'm talking about. To those of you who haven't yet, be patient, you'll find that someone. Don't settle, whatever you do, don't settle. Find that someone who makes your heart flutter, who switches around your basic instincts, who you love no matter how raging mad you get at them. If you settle, you'll never be able to experience this, and because of it both your and the other person will grow old and bitter. Trust me, finding your partner is worth the wait. 

P.S. I apologize for not writing for so long, life's been getting in the way lately. Hopefully now that it's calmed down a little I'll be able to get back to blogging daily. Thanks for reading, whoever's out there.