Love is something people have written about for centuries. It's mysterious, complicated, and probably the most worthy story of all to document. My and his story is one of loss, pain, grief, happiness, joy, but most of all it's a story of love. He has already told you the beginnings of it, using the name Sohneya. I am here to tell you the rest of it. We fell in love under unique circumstances, not unheard of at all, but also not the way I ever expected it to happen. We'd both been hurt in the past, at one point our hearts burned almost to the point of nonrecognition. It's somewhat of a miracle that we were both able to recover the way we did, to trust enough to allow each other in. But we both took a deep breath and plunged headfirst into the raging current. It took us away, but didn't separate us. Love is somewhat like a powerful river; diving in requires risk, and staying in requires even more risk, not to mention trust. But it is worth it, anything you have to go through to get what him and I have is worth it. That is one of the few things I can definitely assure you of. This is where I will pick up the last half of our story, to complete for you what has already been started.
Telling him I loved him was probably the scariest, riskiest thing I've ever had to do. It's also one of the most profound moments of my life, a moment that I will never forget. After we met we began emailing incessantly and talking every chance we could get. From the beginning we fit together, we clicked in a way I hadn't with anyone else before. At first we had adamantly decided that we were not going to date; neither of us wanted to get into another long distance relationship. We were just going to be friends...very close friends. That plan, however, didn't go exactly as we had intended. We couldn't resist each other, it was that simple. We were totally and completely in love, and there was really no way we were going to be able to stay "just friends." The saying "I love you more than yesterday, but less than tomorrow" is a true one. Every day my heart grows for him, even though each day it seems that it can grow no more. So once again we both made leaps of faith and entered into the very thing we had been afraid of; a long distance relationship. I won't tell you that's it's been easy from there on out, because it hasn't been for either of us, not at all. Loving someone that much, being able to see them, hear their voice, but never being able to touch, hug, kiss. There are times when it's almost unbearable. We get to see each other occasionally, every few months, and those times are bliss, there's no other word to describe how we feel when we're near each other. Now we have about two years before we can be together forever. Those two years are going to seem like an eternity. But when put next to the life we're going to be able to share together they seem like a minor obstacle, just something we have to get over to reach our ultimate goal. It's a minuscule trial to go through to get what we will have on the other side. If it's going to be even more than what we have now, I look forward to many years spent in happiness and love with my Sohneya.
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